LOLWUT?

She asked me how I felt about it…
Honestly, I don’t care.
Tony might be moving to Florida in December anyway, so we’d have to break up.
I’ve never stayed in one place long enough.
I’ve never stayed in one school.
I’ve met so many different people, gotten attached to so many different people, and walked away and lost so many different people.
I’m excited in a way because then I can start over.
I’d be meeting new people yet again, and they won’t know about my past or anything.
This is my opportunity to change.
Plus, it won’t be as hard because it’s not like I have a million friends I’d be leaving behind.
I’d be leaving behind Brie and Tony.
Brie already told me that she’d drive to NC every weekend to visit with me.
I already know that that won’t last long at all, but whatever.
I don’t know man, I’m more upset then excited.
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I am extremely happy that you came into my life. Yea, things aren’t great between us right now but we’ll get through it, hopefully. There’s not much I can say other than you make me happier than I have been in a while. You show me that you care for me, & you badger me about buying me things, and I love how annoyed you get when I won’t even let you buy me a mountain dew, lol. I love how you tell me that I have responsibilities, and how you open my eyes to a lot of the mistakes I’ve made in the past and make me realize that I have no one to blame but myself, and that I need to appreciate my life a lot more because there’s people out there that have it a lot worse than I could ever imagine. I love how you’re constantly on me about my habit of twirling my hair, because you don’t want me to go bald, lmao. & How you want us to quit smoking together as a couple so we won’t be struggling alone to do it. Before we got together, your life was the same routine everyday. Wake up, and work all day then go home and sleep. Now, you wake up, work all day, then come straight to me and spend time with me til 2, 3 o’clock in the morning. You lose sleep almost everyday just because you wanna spend time with me. It hasn’t been that long, it’s only been about 3 weeks? & I have no intention of telling you “I love you” for a really long time, but what my intention is… is to keep you around for a while.

Anyway, yep.

She was precious, like a flower. She grew wild but innocent. The perfect prayer in a desperate hour. She was everything beautiful and different. Stupid boy, you can’t fence that in. Stupid boy, it’s like holding back the wind. She laid her heart and soul right in your hands, and you stole her every dream and crushed her plans. She never even knew she had a choice. That’s what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can’t. So what made you think you could take her life, and just push it around? I guess to build yourself up so high. You had to take her, and break her down. Stupid boy, you always had to be right, and now you’ve lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive. Stupid boy, it’s the same old, same old stupid boy.

…It took a while for her to figure out she could run, but when she did she was long gone, long gone.

We’re all infatuated right now.. we swear we’re in love, swearing on “forever & always”. 

Who are we kidding? This won’t last…